Self examination

I’ve noticed in the last couple of days that I wouldn’t want to be friends with myself. I’m distant, moody, awkward, and I don’t do this to seek attention. I just don’t know how to express myself emotionally so I come off, off if you will. On top of that, I’m selfish, conceded and an overall miserable person. I’m everything I hate in this world.

Sometimes when I wake up early because I can’t sleep from what’s on my mind. I really question my self worth and what I contribute not only to society. Also what I can do for the people closest in my life. It’s not a lot, I feel as if there’s more bad than good. I try not to think like this but the feeling creeps in. This feeling is consuming and I don’t think I’ll ever learn from my mistakes.