Miserable.

I haven’t written in forever, I know but I’m delving into one of my depressions again. At times like these I’m mostly aware and “inspired” when I’m either drunk or high. So most of my ideas get blacked out by the morning after. I hate feeling like this. I feel as if I’m losing control. I hate being so analytical and I wish I could be more expressive, but I can’t.

I don’t let anyone in and I feel like I’m drowning, it’s cool I’m used to it.

I’m hoping to get it of this soon, but until then I’ll write again soon

Lana Del Rey – Shades of Cool

• alone
• depressed
• depression
• drowning
• Lana del Rey
• lonely
• thinking